I can't do this.

I can't donthis
I can't do this
I can't donthis on my own.
Plumb - I can't do this

My rubies attrmpted to appear tonight but the digger was blunt so I didn't get many. I failed at the one thing I had hoped would just make me feel better but it's made me feel worse.

Wvery cell in my body is reaching out, grasping for something and getting nothing. I open my mouth and the words never leave. Just sit there in my brain going round and round and round but never leaving.

I'm at a loss. No one knows. No one notices. Let tonight be the nighty soul leaves..... please.