fail

The other night, I was at home, I should have cut I didn't.  I needed something more.... more to the point I didn't.

I had pills and alcohol and hated the fact I woke up the next day.  I'm such a failure.  No one knows.  Not until now.  I should cut, but it just feels like a lot of hard work.

Why can't I cut? Why can't I try again?