Traditionally, after I cut myself, I tell someone I trust what has happened. I do this as a check for myself. To ensure I get my head into gear, to stop me cutting too much and to ensure I get help if I need. The other night was no exception. I'm very 'safe' when I cut.
l Steralise the area, I steralise my blade, I have warm water ready, bandages, cotton wool.... l cut to feel better not to make me ill.
So I found two people I trust, I told them what I did. We chatted. It was meant to help. For the first time it didn't, now I want (need) to cut again + again! I have only one place I cut. 1 have my ritual, my process. It works, or at least it did. I want to cut, I want a new place to cut. One I've not told anyone about. One that is mine + Mine alone.
l need to cut. Not sure what I can do? Don't want scores anywhere else. One location is enough.
