Not Well

I know I should go and get some help but I'm really struggling to get motivated to do it.

I am very erratic at taking my meds, and I know this is a bad thing.

I am tired all the time.

I am struggling to eat properly.

I am struggling to clean the flat (I do have a cleaner but she's not been in for a while).

I am struggling to keep myself clean.

I am struggling to wash my clothes.

I am struggling to keep myself motivated.

I struggle to sleep.

I struggle to wake up.

I struggle to concentrate on anything.

I struggle to keep my anger under control.

I struggle to get any work done.

I struggle to not cut.

I struggle not to drink.

I struggle to not cry all the time.

I struggle to be around people.

I need to go and get help.

But I'm struggling.