I'm in trouble!

"The past is done It's gone forever is done Don't tell me my pain is pleasure You, you haven't got a clue Oh, I wanna cry but I don't make a sound I'm your child and your child is feeling down Everybodys toxic in this town" Robbie Williams: Toxic
I know I shouldn't have done it, but I'm just feeling so bad! I've not talked to anyone in over 30 hours. I've not seen anyone within 30 hours. I've been completely on my own. Last night I couldn't handle how I was feeling, there was no one around. I tried everyone but there was nothing, not one person about. Everyone has their own lives. So I bought a BIG bottle of orange bacardi breezer, drank that to myself and then took some of my old pain killers. I know they make me buzz along side the alcohol. No one around to notice, no one around to stop me.